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2:09 AM i am officially declaring closure of this blog. n sealing off the past. we should haf nothing to do wif each other animore. (u might already been doing this but still..) carry on wif ur life as if i never appeared. i shall not get affected by my own emotions again. it's the best for me, i am not sure about u but this is the decision i have made. i got a lot more other stuff to work on rather than reminiscing the past. as time goes by, i will slowly fade away from your heart and by that time, you would not appear at my void deck anymore even if i sent a hundreds of "i love you".. my heart do not wish to be the only one reviving all the memories.. let another person enters your life and be smart, get a gd person. One who fulfills the 20 Golden rules and one who can comply sincerely with...

..this.
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1. Don't tell us when you think other girls are hot.
2. Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials.
3. If you don't act like soap-opera guys, don't expect us to dress like Victoria Secret Models.
4. Mark anniversaries on the calendar.
5. We think about you all the time
6 This is how we see it : Don't call = Don't care.
7. Which also means that if we don`t call, take a hint.
8. We like you to be a little jealous. But overly possesive is not necessary.
9. Being able to make us laugh is so much more important than knowing how much you can bench-press.
10. We're allowed to be late. You're not.
11. Eye contact is the key.
12. Don't take longer to get ready than we do.
13. Laugh at our jokes.
14. 3 words: honesty, honesty, honesty!
15. Girls can be groupies. Guy groupies are stalkers.
16. Do not start with us. You will not win.
17. Would you like it if a guy treated your sister that way? Didn't think so.
18 If you ask nicely, we`ll answer the same way.
19. We will never have enough clothes or shoes.
20. We have an excuse for being bitchy at least once a month.
21 Open the door for us no matter where we are.
22. We love surprises.
23. We like to be kissed softly. Not with an iron tongue.
24. Pay attention to the little things we do, because they mean the most.
25. Boxers and maybe boxer briefs sometimes. Never tighty-whities!
26. Always brush your teeth before you see us. A fresh mouth and white teeth are a necessity.
27. Clean your room before we come over.
28. Even though you're sometimes insensitive and hurt us, we still love you with everything we've got.
29. Don't act tough around your friends
30. Sometimes "NO" really means "NO!".
31. "Wife beaters" are not a form of fashion.
32. If we wanted to be on video tape, we'd be a porn star. NOT your girlfriend.
33. Sensitive guys are great.. but crying more than we do in a movie just isn't right.
34. Don't let ex-girlfriends cause drama, relationships are stressful enough.
35. It takes a special kind of stupid to forget birthdays.
36. Guys who are good cuddlers = guys who know how to satisfy a woman.
37. "Fat chicks" have feelings, too.
38. Silent treatment, shoulder shrugs, tears, yelling, & nasty looks add up to = YOU DID SOMETHING WRONG.
39. The excuse "I can't dance" is unacceptable. We'll appreciate the simple fact that you're trying.
40. Just because a girl doesn't pick up on the first ring, doesn't mean she's not waiting by the phone.
41. You don't have to spend alot; if it means alot.
42. Don't say you love me if you don't mean it.
43. Don't lie to us. We will catch you.
44. When the girls get together, we talk about everything. Meaning, my bestfriends know everything about you.
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..and this.

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The 27 ways to make a girl smile:

*1 . Tell her she is beautiful (not hot, fine, or sexy)
*2 . Hold her hand at any moment . . . even if its just for a second.
*3 . Kiss her on the forehead.
*4 . Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
*5 . Always tell her you love her every second of the day.
*6 . When she is upset, hold her tight and tell her how much she means to you.
*7 . Recognize the small things . . . they usually mean the most.
*8 . Sing to her no matter how horrible your voice is. (this one no need.)
*9 . Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with.
*10 . Write her notes. (she loves them)
*11 . Introduce her to family and friends . . . as your girlfriend.
*12 . Play with her hair.
*13 . Pick her up, tickle her, and play-wrestle with her.
*14 . Sit in the park and just talk to her.
*15 . Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, or just tell her jokes.
*16 . Throw pebbles at her window in the middle of the night. just because you missed her.
*17 . Let her fall asleep in your arms.
*18. Carve your names into a tree.
*19 . If she's mad at you, kiss her.
*20 . Give her piggyback rides.
*21 . Bring her flowers.
*22 . Treat her the same around your friends as you do when your alone.
*23 . Look her in the eyes and smile.
*24 . Let her take as many pictures of you as she wants.
*25 . Slow dance with her, even if there isn't any music playing.
*26 . Kiss her in the rain.
*27 . If your in love with her . . . tell her.
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i would realli love to feel your hug, when you sensed my tears, once again so that i can return it...

stay v v v happi for the rest of your life.
take v v v good care of yourself.

Your (Ex-)Baby,
Weide.

delete this blog after u have read.

1:44 AM Our Story became history.
Love, has become a legend.
Happiness.. a myth.

The history still remains in my heart. I am always wondering whether I can start a new story like this. With the feelings, there will be neither Love nor Happiness in all the upcoming stories. Love only lies in HER, and Happiness only exists when I am with HER. Since I understand this, what am I still doing? Y don't I ask her back? Y don't I go back to her? I guess, deep down inside my heart.. love... and happiness... has already been categorized under legend and myth.
Do I not have the courage to continue from what we left off? Am I afraid of hurting, or being hurt? or..
Shouldn't I just start a new Story?

but without Love and Happiness, it is not even qualified to be term as a Story...


What else can I do...?


to my one and only ex-, whom this blog is indirectly started for:
there is no need to wish for my happiness, anymore (if you are still doing so) because it only appears in fairytales...
smoke less. and dun tell me "u should know why i smoke/drink/go clubbing"
u didnt smoke because of me. ask urself, do you smoke when you think of me, us, the history? but do you oso smoke when you dun think of them?

2:30 PM am i happy?
i should be happy without you. i knew that i always wanted to be free.
but i'm not. i can't forget you. i can't get rid of you from my mind completely.
i hate this feeling. i don't want to think off you anymore. everything i do, watching movie, sms'ing, going gym, reminds me of you.
my heart wants to regain freedom...

it also seems to me that you CAN and is ABLE to live on perfectly without me. and you went back to your old ways, like smoking, clubbing etc. so this is the life you wanted and you just ignored whatever i say before, whatever i told you not to do, after we break-up. it's okay. i have decided. go ahead and do whatever you like, we will have nothing to do with each other anymore. i am not going to read your blog anymore, i will try and tell myself that i have never met you. it's a disappointment to see you becoming like this. nevermind, i am sure.. in the future someone will take over my place in your heart. just like how i took over donald's.

the decision: i declare that i am breaking the promise of Spider-man 3 (2007), together with all those that i ever made before. Sorry.

4:03 PM without you, i have freedom. without you, i always have more than enough money to spend. without you, i can do my work and other stuff whenever i like. without you, i do not have to change any plan/schedule because of whatever stupid reason. without you, i am not obliged to talk on the phone every night and shift my sleeping hours. without you, i can make friends with / receive presents from anyone. without you, i have no restriction.

as you can see, there's alot of things that love cannot rival. only after i gave up on love, i understand that i actually gain much more. on the other hand, love.. is.. absolutely insignificant.

i am sure you forgotten about some incidents, escape theme park, paradize centre. well, i didnt. and remember how i told you our problems should only be kept between us? from your blog, it seems that you violate this rule again. it doesnt really matters but anyway i still have to correct your friends and make you understand clearer.

I DON'T NEED YOU, AND I WILL NEVER DO. maybe yes in the past, but not now or in the future.

i said "i love you" because i really do, i never stopped loving you. i appericate that you didn't give up after so long and totally understand how you feel towards me. but again, as i mentioned earlier, after the break-up i finally realised that love is actually nothing. it is just another kind of feeling on the same level with happy, sad, hatred etc. so, love and need - 2 different thing.
after reading what's written above, i suppose you understood why you didn't receive a reply.

i don't want to give up what i have now, definitely not because of love. so about the "dog" comments from your friends, i will tell you that loyalty can be much more important than love. i would rather you change completely and love a completely different You without losing any of my freedom than following my heart blindly and continue to suffer.

"loving sumone for who he/she is" is nonsense for people who are blinded by love and think that LOVE is the greatest thing on earth. rubbish. even if it is, it would be fatherly/motherly love.

.. maybe you should blame yourself for saying "let's break-up" so easily. which gave me the chance to escape from the cage and see many other wonderful stuff, so wonderful that i am not returning anymore. but if you really love me, shouldn't you be happy for me that i finally understand the meaning of love in life...?

i suggest that you go think about what is the true meaning of love also. who knows, you might be able to See SOMETHING ELSE in it too.

8:36 PM yesterday, 22nd october was my birthday! :P hmm.. had a very very memorable birthday with my honey. and received some of the most wonderful and meaningful presents ever. thanks a lot, honey. however, the happiness did not last long.. haha.. because o levels is coming and after this week we are not meeting anymore. :( till 22nd of november (which is also our 1 month anniversary) the end of GCE 'O' Levels Examination. wahahaa.. i'm going to miss her. erm.. 11 more days to o levels, getting really nervous.. amitabha. god bless me. :XxX


2:50 AM wah.. *yum* just finished a cup of HL fresh milk.

Weide's Art of War:
i always believe that if one decides not to attempt to do something because the result is uncertain, the percentage of success is 0. but if he/she try doing it, the percentage will at least be 50.
yesterday, and for the past few weeks, have been trying so hard to erm.. kiss my honey, on the lips, but i failed. well, kind of getting use to it already. haha.. maybe i am too greedy. :P being physically close has got nothing to do with the feelings, the heart, mind, spirit, soul.. oops. hehe.. so the kissing part might be just my physical desire - lust? :XxX but wait! after much thinking, consideration, brainstorm and whatever, i have finally decided, that i am NOT going to try kissing her ANYMORE. i repeat, I AM NOT TRYING IT AGAIN! can i? wahahaa.. enough of failures :( i just want to hug her and sleep for err.. until she starts to hug me? :PpP don't understand? that's a little DARK secret between me and my honey (when she's asleep) *winks*

oh wednesday, someone actually asked whether if i am her brother after seeing our photo, the one on my msn -___- really hate it!

hmm.. 18 more days to O levels.


1:38 AM usually, i would come here and blog when i have stress, problems, confusions etc. to type out my feelings. well, guess i won't be posting as often anymore, cause.. hehe.. :) i found my happiness. yes, my honey. how should i say it? hmm.. maybe i shouldn't say anything. it is not easy to descibe happiness but yeah, Heaven.. fate.. we met and.. i will treasure and love her.. err.. kind of don't know what to write today. :P just want to share this happy news with everybody, and wish all fated lovers to have.. have.. a happy ending? haha..
our story shall start from this very moment.. pg 1.